Posted by aislinn / 7:58 AM /
i'm currently at war within myself, and may very well be for the rest of my life. The life that calls to me with every fiber of my being is one that requires that i trust the one i'm with...with every fiber of my being; and i just dont know if i can do that again. It's also frustrating knowing that i could never do a vanilla relationship and be satisfied....and still know that any lifestyle relationship is going to require that trust thing...it will require me to trust enough to give up that control...and trust someone. Can you be hurt too much that you just cant trust anyone? Can you really become damaged goods?
i'm starting to think that maybe i'm too damaged for either life. There are some pieces i can put back together...but some i dont think i will be able to.
Well, this was a tad more melancholy that i would like, but it cant all be sunshine and roses.
To post a comment you have to hit tab to get the captcha thing...dont know why that's just the way it is.