my Sanctuary


Welcome to my sanctuary. This is a place for me to share the ups and downs of my life as a mother, woman, friend, and subbie. To revel in the triumphs and work through the difficult parts, but to always be me...the good...the bad...and the playful.

Still Not There Yet, Still Room to Grow

It’s been an interesting few days to say the least, a lot that is not good, but thankfully there are bright sides so I’ll focus on those.  I’m still moving forward in my life.  But a few road blocks have been it, but that’s life…go around or break them down and move on.  I think that’s what I’ve focused on now.  Putting one foot in front of the other, but cant help but wonder if something permanent transpired or just another temporary setback.  Okay enough of the negative, it’s past actions and I cant do anything about them, but learn and move forward.

On the positives, well, I went back to focusing on the things that I need to do, and so I started making more slave bells again.  And low and behold, but I sold 2 of them in one day.  It was wonderful to wake up that morning to see that one was sold, it was an emotional boost that I needed.  Then later the same day I finished and posted another anklet and it wasn’t up more than 15 mins before it was sold.  I was shocked and amazed as well as extremely greatful.

I have started working with wire work on the anklets, it takes a LOT longer to make one but I like the end result.  It’s like nothing I have seen in dancing/slave bells and it looks very delicate.  Over all I’m very pleased with them, although I’m probably not charging enough for the amount of time it takes to make them.  But such is life.

The other positive I have going on is that I have my body in a state of ketosis.  I monitor it closely as to not let my ketones get too high, but it means that my body is burning fat…YIPEE!!  I have been steadily losing weight now for about 2 weeks and I’m very excited.  I need to continue this and stick with it.  I know it will work.  I just need to maintain focus and determination.  I CAN do this, and I will.

All in all I’m surviving at this point and trying to avoid any emotional triggers.  I had one breakdown earlier this week and I don’t want another.  The only way to change perception is to change myself…transform it and make it new.   


alex said...

You will make it. I have faith in you. Might be a good time to go see some friends for a good whacking :)

Concentrate on you. You are strong aislinn. *hugs*

aislinn said...

lol a good wacking sounds wonderful

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