Power in the Present

The Point of Power is Always in the Present Moment~The past is over and done and has no power over me. I can begin to be free in this moment. Today’s thoughts create my future. I am in charge. I now take my own power back. I am safe and I am free.~Louise L. Hay

Okay…first off, WOW. When I read that today I was just floored.  Based on my lifestyle choice and what I’m going through recently; this quote just strikes to the heart of matters.  One of the things I have been struggling with now is that I wasn’t sure how my past experience in the lifestyle was going to affect my views on starting a new one.  But I need to remember that as of this moment; I am in charge of how I form my next relationship. And that not every relationship is set up the same, even if it’s basic principals are similar.

The first time I jumped with complete trust that someone would make sure I landed okay.  I was totally new to everything so I couldn’t see the bottom.  I just trusted and jumped.  Well, that wasn’t the case and it didn’t work.  However, I’m not new anymore.  I know what the bottom should look like and I know where to shine the light and see things for what they really are.

I don’t need to be afraid of the past anymore. I know where to look. I know how they shouldn’t be and I know how they can be.  I’ve seen the good and felt the bad.  I have been made stronger for it.  My strength is in my present.  The past is my foundation…and I can light my way to the future.

It may seem like a contradiction for a submissive to feel empowered…honestly, I don’t know. I am just me.  And for right now, I am the one that’s shaping my destiny.  There is opportunity and power in the present and I cant let the past hold me back, or make me afraid of walking through some doors which maybe a tad frightening right now.

The present is mine to make the most of and there is nothing I can do about the past.  Not a lot I can do about the future either…the only thing I can control is the present.  And I plan on not regretting a second of it.